Do you ever get a feeling so great that you’re terrified that it wouldn’t last cause it is temporary and then you feel sad instead of cherishing the moment? You feel like its happening but its slipping outta hands and I love this moment but I’m so stressed that it will pass. I’ve started to feel this way more often than I should. I start panicking if I don’t take photos of that moment, or don’t write it out.. cause I know that after some years, I am going to forget about it and I really don’t want to forget. I want to remember things. All of them. Also.. I fear if the person I’m with.. or someone who’s the cause of my happiness is the human I get into a fight with. What will I do then? Leave?
The whole pixie dust case scenario turns into sand dust the moment these thoughts flash through my mind. Like what even. I don’t even know what future holds, why don’t I just live in the moment and then just let it be. Why don’t I just let memories go.. let chances go. Why don’t I try to be human..? Time to stop being a portable hard drive. Time to start living the moments that come ahead. Time to stop trying to take control of everything. Time to let it be. Time to deal with the consequences later.
Hah. Who am I kidding? I’ll stay the same way. Always. That is who I am.
Flickering Lanterns 
March 12, 2016 at 6:49 pm
Time to be yourself.
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March 12, 2016 at 6:56 pm
Yeah. Time to be myself and screw this post. 😀
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March 12, 2016 at 7:10 pm
Why screw this post? O_0 it is good. You’re too good at writing. Just tired of complimenting you all the time. Umm nah, tired is the wrong word. It just looks awkward.
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March 12, 2016 at 7:12 pm
I know why it does. Haha. Nahi kiya kijiye itni tareef. tareef hi nahi kiya kijiye. Kheyr hai ese bhi. 🙂
And no I am not good at writing. I write fuzool stuff.
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March 12, 2016 at 7:17 pm
Meri marzi ha ._. Not your choice.
Oh really? Hmm. acha phir?
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March 12, 2016 at 7:19 pm
Okaaayyy? As you wish then. *A huge bash of laughter*
Yes. Phir ye k I don’t deserve appreciation cause most of my written stuff is crap. So yeah, that’s it.
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March 12, 2016 at 7:22 pm
I made someone laugh. Awesome.
Ahan. Agay Kia hoa? What happened next?
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March 12, 2016 at 7:26 pm
Yeah you did. You usually do, no?
-_- This aint a story, man.
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March 12, 2016 at 7:30 pm
Nah. Not usually in real life.
No?
It was some good fiction. Why every good thing has to end? Why are moments like these temporary?
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March 12, 2016 at 7:33 pm
Poor people who don’t know this side of you.
Fiction? Bhui. Acha thek hai.
Because life is temporary. There’s just one thing permanent, death. Or afterlife?
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March 12, 2016 at 7:36 pm
Cause this side is fake maybe.
Jee theek.
Yeah. Afterlife is cool. Eternal happyness. Can’t wait.
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March 12, 2016 at 7:38 pm
You fake this side perfectly tho. I’m impressed.
🙂
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March 12, 2016 at 7:47 pm
Dayum. Someone is impressed too. My life is now complete. Can you please kill me now? I need eternal happyness asap.
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March 12, 2016 at 7:52 pm
Na uh. Trying not to become a murderer or even a serial killer. 🙂
You can be happy in this life as well. No one is stopping you.
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March 12, 2016 at 7:58 pm
Okay
I thought you liked scaring people.
I am happy. Who said I’m not? I made someone laugh. I impressed someone too. I am really happy.
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March 12, 2016 at 8:02 pm
Hahaahahhahahahahah. Yes I do. I love to scare people. But I can’t say that I can kill them. Cause then I’ll have to since I don’t break my promises. :p
That’s even great!
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March 12, 2016 at 8:10 pm
I made someone laugh again. This is turning out to be a great day. I don’t want to go to sleep anymore. I dont crave the temporary suicide anymore. I want to cherish this moment. This moment right now.
You don’t? That is good MA.
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March 12, 2016 at 8:16 pm
🙂 Sleep as temporary suicide..? It is interesting how people have different opinions about the same things we go through on a daily basis. That’s some deep shizz. Wow.
Yeah I don’t. Minus my self promises. I break them sometimes.
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March 12, 2016 at 8:21 pm
Hah. Yeah. I guess it was some internet friend who used that word once. Khair. No it’s not deep. Just crap. But I love to sleep. It is the best thing. Shutting down everything for a while.
Oh. That’s not good then. Work on that too.
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March 12, 2016 at 8:27 pm
Oh. Most of the people love to sleep.
It is for the better. I sometimes confine myself to fuzul limits. For instance, I decided that I won’t enjoy rains when I was twelve. I kept that promise for seven years. Then I couldn’t resist. Had to set myself free.
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March 13, 2016 at 6:01 am
Won’t enjoy rains? 😮 why did you do that? And seven years? 😐
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March 13, 2016 at 5:55 pm
Yes. Because something bad happened. Yes seven years. I was too naive to understand that I don’t have to shape my choices according to others.
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March 13, 2016 at 7:03 pm
Hmm. But you do enjoy them now, right? All is well that ends well.
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March 13, 2016 at 7:12 pm
It doesn’t rain in Karachi anymore.
Mhmm. Indeed.
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March 13, 2016 at 7:26 pm
Lol it does. Not often. But it does. The weather is good nowadays, no? Btw it’s been raining here since forever and it’s not stopping. I hope the sun comes out tomorrow.
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March 13, 2016 at 7:31 pm
Not in Karachi. Qeher hai yahan.
Yeah. Lucky you guys. All the KPK ones and the capital and Lahore. Sigh.
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March 13, 2016 at 7:50 pm
Oh I heard Kay hawayen chal rahi the.
Yeah but har cheez Ki ziadti is also not good. Har jaga pani pani ha bas.
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March 14, 2016 at 6:15 am
Whatevs. :3
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March 12, 2016 at 8:02 pm
Even I feel alot of times that I need to preserve some moments.Little things that happened that made me smile of taught me something I need them to stay with me.
The part where you said pixie dust case scenario turns into sand dust..reminded me of Tinker bell and then suddenly sand man from RISE OF THE GUARDIANS. :3
I’m sorry but I have to ask.Was the picture from the net or not?
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March 12, 2016 at 8:08 pm
Haina. It happens. My friend though, she doesn’t understand. She shakes her head every time she points at something nice and I, before saying anything click it.
Hahaha. You are way into animation movies.
Yes it was. I put photos from the internet here. In my blogs. Most of the time. Unless the category is different. It looks like my iphone islye I took that.
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March 12, 2016 at 8:10 pm
Yeah you are right.
Im trying to reduce this type of entertainment but failing.
Ohkay. 🙂
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March 12, 2016 at 8:14 pm
You don’t have to. 🙂 Its good.
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March 13, 2016 at 3:17 am
But I want to.Even books I want to change.I should read better books not all fiction and stuff.
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March 13, 2016 at 5:51 pm
Don’t care about the shoulds and supposed-tos. You don’t have to fit in. Try to stand out of the crowd.
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March 13, 2016 at 6:15 pm
Im not trying to fit in.Plus I already do stand out.Not alot of people approve of someone my age watching animated movies.XD
Well it is there fault they miss some awesomeness.
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March 13, 2016 at 6:16 pm
Exactly.
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March 13, 2016 at 4:14 am
You need to give yourself a break! Stop obsessing about time. Make yourself understand the fact that the good time at least happened. If you want to picture it, click away. Don’t fret about it tho. I usually start finding everything strangely funny when I’m in a mood like that. And then after a while I turn out to be less stressful thinking, well, it’s all like a script. Our lives are scripted. Just gotta play along. (Tho of course it’s not completely a script but you get it right?)
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March 13, 2016 at 5:53 pm
The script thing reminded me of Shakespeare. The world is a stage and we are actors.
Right. That is what I am trying to make me understand. But how do I actually stop? :3
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March 13, 2016 at 6:17 pm
I’m not exactly an expert at this stuff, but focusing on my prayer helps too. When you believe more and have stronger faith (I’ll admit I’m crap at it and I probably sound so naik and stuff, but like it does help)
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March 13, 2016 at 6:20 pm
Hah. I am not depressed about the whole temporary times thing. I just freak out easily.
Yes prayer does help. It does. Talking to God is the ultimate solution to every damn thing.
Things in the bracket, please take em back.
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March 13, 2016 at 6:22 pm
I get freaked out to at times. Like. Wow am I really going to grow up? It’s like something I dread and look forward to at the same time and then it’s too much to feel I suppose and then I’m like maybe I’d rather stay where I am 😂
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March 13, 2016 at 6:35 pm
Cherish things before you grow up. I have grown up and its shit. Not what I expected. Growing up means self surgery of extracting things you are used to and leaving things you love. Don’t be excited. Aint worth it. Enjoy your childhood.
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March 13, 2016 at 6:47 pm
Yeah. Suppose so.
It’s so weird tho. Everything. Like absolutely everything. Half of the stuff that happens makes no sense, like was it necessary for it to happen?
Actually I think I’m writing nonsense now 😛 in one of those low moods. It’s nice talking to you tho mahaah, don’t stop blogging man I like this little – well – neighbourhood? Lol. You get it.
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March 13, 2016 at 7:03 pm
Exactly.
That’s okay. I won’t. 🙂
Yeah. We live a little sum of miles away.
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March 13, 2016 at 7:10 pm
🙂
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